The Inner Struggle of Just Being Me
Thursday, October 20, 2011 at 1:24PM Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you thought you were confident about doing something until you actually had to do it? Only to find that your confidence is shot and you start feeling the fear of “What IF…..” After years of struggling with this, I am learning to be true and authentic about who I am, as well as really recognizing how God sees me. I have recently had to ask myself, “why do I only allow people to see what at times seems to be the put together side of me?” “What is it about opening up to people that keeps me from being free to be me?” After much prayer and thought, I have decided the best way to live from this day forward is to EXHALE and just be the best me that I know how to be.
There is a scripture in Psalms that states….”I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works and that my soul knoweth right well.” Wow….If I am wonderfully made, why shouldn’t I just be me? I have some flaws, hang ups and things to work on, but thru it all, God still sees me as a MARVELOUS WORK!!! That kind sparks something in me. I must learn to stop looking at things with my natural eyes and realize that what my soul and inner being needs to connect with daily. First, God has made me who I am. Second, I am wonderfully made, because God doesn’t make mistakes. Las and most important, God love me even in my feelings of inadequacy.
If you attended our Ladies retreat this year in May, Sister Holly Drost made us realize that even in our frenzy of days or state of minds, it’s okay to embrace who God has made us to be. Sometimes we may have to confront things in fear, attitudes, or negative thoughts, but as long as we refocus and realize who we are in God and know that Marvelous are His works. Even in me, and thru me.
So as you read the blogs over the next few weeks, I pray that you see a glimpse of yourself and can relate to who we are. We are Women, We are Sisters and we should never go thru this walk feeling alone. I know that I am not alone in feeling less that wonderfully made at times, but WE ARE MARVELOUS IN HIS EYES.
Be blessed and know that someone is praying for you today!
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